Warning: This post contains spoilers from Tuesday’s episode ofThe Bachelorette.
Two Bachelorettes means two nights of Fantasy Suites.
“I started feeling that I’m not at a place where I’m ready to get engaged,” Jason, 30, told the cameras. “I’m doing my best to stay true to myself and just to me, it just doesn’t feel right.”
They played tennis, one of Jason’s favorite activities. “I had more fun today than I could’ve imagined,” Jason said. “It just felt special.”
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But then, Jason used dinner as an opportunity to tell her how he felt.
“I do know that I’m into you and when I’m with you, I feel like I’m having some of the best days ever,” he began. “And I know what the expectation of this is, for a lot of people is being engaged and being fully in love. And to me, to be like completely transparent and honest, I don’t think I’m fully there yet. I think it’s because in this environment, it’s constantly in my head like, what’s real? What’s not real? I’m questioning so many things … I don’t think in another seven days I’ll be ready for that. It’s just not something in my heart that feels right.”
“It’s so hard for me to see that right now within this bubble because I feel like you don’t even know who I am completely,” Jason said. “And I don’t fully feel like I know who you are.”
Jason added that he struggled with the process of the show. “It’s been hard for me to feel at ease with the cameras and microphones and stuff,” he explained.
“I think I totally see us getting to a point in real life where we can spend time together,” he told her.
“I think being off camera and being private in privacy will help understand the situation and maybe I can hear you better and you can hear me better,” Jason said.
“Waking up, I’m hurt and I’m devastated,” she said in an on-camera interview. “Last night with Jason, once we got behind closed doors, we were talking in circles and I didn’t agree on how things were going to go. And if we needed more time and honestly, I was running out of patience. I was like, ‘Maybe it’s just not meant to be.’ And then he was like, ‘Yeah, definitely.'”
The pair slept separately and reconvened in the morning.
RACHEL’S LAST OVERNIGHT
After aFantasy Suitewith Tino that Rachel described as “so perfect,” she explored Mexico with Zach.
“When I’m with Rachel, everything is just so bright and fun and easy and that’s a pretty great feeling,” the tech executive, 25, said in an on-camera interview.
The couple walked around the Mexico streets, trying on hats, checking out souvenirs and eating local foods like Chapulines (grasshoppers!) They stopped in to see a tarot card reader, who told Rachel she’s indecisive and shouldn’t let the past affect her future.
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“The relationship between Zach and I is really powerful and he loves me and wants to take care of me,” Rachel told the cameras. “But with Tino and Aven, I also have such an incredible connection, so I’m struggling.”
Zach didn’t express any struggle. “I love this woman and I want to be with her for the rest of my life,” he said in an on-camera interview.
Rachel and Zach reflected on what the tarot card reader told them before heading to the Fantasy Suite.
“I couldn’t imagine what you were going through last year,what Clayton had done,” Zach said. “And that was obviously the worst thing a man could do.”
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At breakfast the next morning, something felt off between Rachel and Zach.
“It was a tough conversation but I’m glad you handled it well,” the flight instructor told Zach. “And hopefully it helped gain clarity.”
Their conversation actually had the opposite effect. “I’m feeling a little confused after last night,” Zach said in an on-camera interview. “Fantasy Suite night with Rachel was not the night I expected. Initially in the Fantasy Suite, I was feeling so sure. We’re having this amazing time and we’re one step closer to engagement and we’re having an important conversation about religion, politics, all that stuff and Rachel brought up her fear that maybe I’m not ready for a commitment like marriage at this early of an age. And I’m like, ‘Don’t worry about that. I’m here for you.’ But then she got really adamant.”
Zach said that made him “second guess” their relationship. “It was like we were two strangers,” he continued. “I don’t know when it hit me, but Rachel’s concern came out of nowhere and I think it’s bulls— to be honest. And she was putting on a front. That scares me.”
Zach expressed his concerns to hostJesse Palmer. “When we were in the Fantasy Suite, just completely the way we were together, you know that feeling, did like a 180 and she was different, I was different,” Zach explained, adding that he found Rachel to be “very unauthentic” during their alone time.
Jesse, 43, wondered if it was “stuff she was saying or the tone of the conversation” that threw Zach off.
“A major concern was my age and she wasn’t sure if I was ready to commit because I’m 25,” Zach said, pointing out that Rachel is 26.
Zach resolved to talk to Rachel before the rose ceremony.
ROSE CEREMONY
“I can’t tolerate any more pain,” she said in an on-camera interview. “I know walking away from him would be what I need to protect myself.”
Then she let Erich know that Johnny and Jason both left, making him the last man standing.
“I love you,” he said before the two fell into a passionate kiss.
Before Rachel could give out her roses, Zach asked her to talk — but the outcome won’t be seen until next week’s finale.
The Bacheloretteseason 19 finale airs Tuesday (8 p.m. ET) on ABC.
source: people.com
