After three pregnancies,Jessie James Deckerknows how hard it is toget back in shape— and she isn’t about to sugarcoat it for her followers.
The country singer and South Beach Diet spokesperson, 30, opened up about managing her self-esteem and expectationsduring the weight loss process, and shared a “real” photo of her body before and after.
“I’m a little nervous about showing y’all that before [picture] because I was pretty uncomfortable but I want to keep it real with you guys!” she added.
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Withthose three pregnanciescoming in just four and a half years, Decker said she’s now “been every shape and size” — including hitting 165 lbs. with her first child — which wasa change for her bodyafter years of relying on her strong metabolism to stay slim.
“Having children definitely changed everything and I’m so blessed and grateful to have my babies as y’all know, but it definitely can test your self-esteem when you are used to looking and feeling a certain way,” she said. “It was really hard on my frame and I definitely struggled self-esteem wise.”
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“This is the fastest I have ever lost weight from all of my pregnancies and I truly think it’s just from educating myself and knowing what to do and having this program right in front of me,” she said. “My goal now as far as my body goes is to be healthy and happy and fit, not ‘skinny.’ ”
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Decker also told PEOPLE in Octoberthat she had lost 17 lbs. at that point, but she wasn’t focusing on the number.
“I’m not a big scale person. I’m big on how I look and how I feel, and I’m all about building muscle and toning up,” she said. “I used to obsess over that stuff back in the day and I just don’t anymore. I think how do I look, how do I feel, how do my clothes fit me, and I’m all about getting in the gym. I love lifting weights and I love being active and I look and feel better from that.”
source: people.com